aesthetic by me

i'm a disaster bi and proud of it.

my journey towards actually acknowledging who i am (which i fully realised a couple years ago (wow time flies), despite...quite a few hookups and other obvious things lol self-denial can be really strong as i'm sure plenty of you can relate) hasn't been straight(forward) (hah) but like...at this point in my life, i don't actually care all that much about how supposed/former ally friends made me feel after i'd hook up with a girl at a club. or how in certain spaces i've experienced really fucked up biphobia and treated as not-queer-enough or i was considered fake-gay or whatever, esp while being in a relationship with someone of the opposite gender. or how i constantly have to live surrounded with bigoted people.

i mean, obviously, i do care, the trauma of it all will never go away, biphobia and bi erasure are major problems, but right now i'm comfortable in my skin. i have (had...since i'm in a sort-of-relationship with a guy right now) tons of fun hooking up with girls. it's different, and it's amazing, and i love it as much as i love hooking up with guys. being bi is pretty great when you can be open with the people you want to be open with. and everyone who is still in the closet, who isn't ready to come out (i know how it felt for me seeing people flaunt (bad word choice probably, can't think of another one rn) it back when i still didn't feel like i could, and for me it really really sucked and fucked with my mental health as well as my identity ughhhh) or doesn't feel the need - you all are valid af and bi af. being bi isn't a phase, your partner doesn't define your sexuality and if you're in a straight-passing (ughh i don't like this term much but ughh) relationship you're still bi.

anyhow.

bi af.

i've written a lot of stories since i first joined this community, and...well. obviously most of the characters i write ended up being bi. the representation i write is mostly what i know, so i know it's not for everyone, but i consider all the characters a part of me, in some small way at least here's a little overview (and one i haven't written yet but i will):

• queen of disaster series :: lingering darkness & favourite worst nightmare | original poetry and flash fiction/drabble collection ft. my own experiences, i could list specific poems but there are quite a few, and right now in the flash fiction collection two standouts (as in..my faves though i'm also really fond of he tastes like jack when i'm kissing him) are +ripped fishnets and +broken record. though. i mean all of these are bi since they're, yk, mine
• mouth full of white lies | hp next gen ft. bi quinn jones (oc) and bi dominique weasley, both are disasters
• your name sounds better when it's whispered low | hp first wizarding war ft. bi narcissa black and bi gideon prewet, even though it might not be obvious in the two chapters posted?? idk, i think it is, others may not agree
• you're ripped at every edge but you're a masterpiece | hp first wizarding war ft. bi sirius black who is in love with both lily and james because #tragedy. i really want to write a sirius!pov story at some point since the james part of his tragedy is slightly background in this particular lily-centric story
• physical fatality | hp rebuilding ft. bi disaster oc freya johansen who may or may not be in love with oliver wood who knows
• napalm skies | hp next gen ft. disaster bis that are dominique weasley and quinn jones though this one is dominique-centric
• bad habits | hp next gen ft. once again the disaster that's dominique weasley and this one was written to celebrate pride month so it'll always hold a special place in my heart
• as the ashes hit the ground | asoiaf au fic (to be written lol) ft. chaotic bi disaster jaime lannister because oh my fucking god i mean just read +these +tumblr posts or the tldr is arthur dayne anybody? jaime's ultimate crush i know. also brandon stark at some point 100000%. and lil crush on the blackfish. maybe ned stark.

it would make me happy seeing others share their support or their own fics or other people's fics in comments or wherever i know this blog post is bi pride centric , but i love and appreciate all lgbtqia+ people so if you're queer but not bi please still feel free to share, it really would make me happy

in honour of the poc community members without whom we wouldn't have pride today, +here's a link to a tweet thread celebrating them! and a +link to a gdrive with articles relating to lgbtqia+ intersectionality

happy pride month