Happy Pride Month! 

And I have some fun news...

I'm non-binary!  

And I now go by the name Jerri (which means spear ruler) 

It's been a fun journey of self-realisation and giving myself permission to love and accept myself. I came out as bisexual two years ago but that wasn't as much as a big deal to me as coming out as non-binary. I felt being openly bisexual didn't fundamentally change how I saw myself or how anyone saw me, but with gender identity it feels HUGE. I'm only out to a certain number of people, excluding my family and church community, but I've already felt the difference. I'm so much happier in myself and even if I'm not out to my therapist yet, they certainly know something's put a spring in my step!

I came out as enby to my best friend the day after my birthday last month, the first time I'd seen her in person for months. She didn't quite understand it and I'd gone into it expecting her not to but still having that actualised made me feel a bit meh.  It's not that she's in anyway hateful, she's just not got the type of brain to comprehend what it means if I can say that in the nicest way possible, but I love her to pieces.  She did apologise for her initial reaction the following day though and says she loves me no matter what and that as long as I'm happy it doesn't matter to her and that's all I needed.

With my family, I just do not at all feel safe coming out, especially with the fact that I have a different name now. I'm moving out very soon though, so hopefully that will make things easier for me rather than just living two different lives - that's what it feels like when you're semi-out. Part of you is faking and outright lying to people. It's not true but that's what it feels like. Don't even get me started on church... 

But yes, I just wanted to yell from the rooftops that I'm a bisexual enby and PROUD!